Looking Back While Moving Forward

I waited for the day that I will get to leave the Philippines, and here I am so anxious of so many things that my near departure is not fully sinking in.

I am so distracted that I forgot what my initial purpose for going online was. I saw the pictures that I have accumulated the past 2 - 3 years and I am blown away with new realizations. Every time I see pictures of myself from the past, I am reminded of memories and I seem to remember them differently each time.

I have a new sense of appreciation of myself and what I have done in the past when I remember my efforts. What seemed like very small achievements back then seem impressively significant to me now. I don't know if this is an ironic state of mind, since the trend as we get older is that we accomplish greater things and we overcome more difficult challenges as we go through life. Then again, we tend to belittle ourselves in the beginning and the younger we are the greater the expectations we have of ourselves and the people around us.

I used to feel that my days were too long, and that the day that I was waiting for will never come. Like all things, good and bad it all has to end. Sadly, there are times when you want to hold on to good things and skip the bad things and wish that the good moments with loved ones will never end. There also comes a time when we have to live our own lives and leave others behind simply because we have to find our own destiny.

Before I start sounding corny and too emotional, let me share with you some of the things I am already beginning to miss.

I will miss Britney. She is my Jack Russell Terrier who is about to turn one-year old this April. She has been my constant companion since August of last year and she has given me so much love and joy.


I will miss my bazaar activities, especially the ones I had at the St. James Bazaar '08 together with Jels, Kel, and Van.




I will miss the San Miguel Bay Side of Mall of Asia and the good food and good memories I experienced there.



I will miss Frozen Margaritas that I can already barely afford here, what more when they're so much more expensive abroad.


I will miss driving and I may even slightly miss Manila...




I will miss the club even if I have not been able to go there for quite some time now...

I will miss wrapping lots of gifts on Christmas and receiving lots of gifts as well!


I will definitely miss my family and friends....

There are so many things to be missed and I won't be able to fit all of them in just one blog post. So let this be the first of my reminiscing of my memories here in Manila.

To be continued...